"life isn't all fun and games, or sweet friends that will be there forever. cause life never works out the way we want it to. call me cynical, but like everyone else, i'm just a victim of the greatest irony of all: life."

a part of jing's entries.
her entries are so, thought provoking.
i think everyone shld read them.

was just thinking back.
abt erm, friends.
how almost every single friendship met with adversities.
threattening to break away, just like that.
and most of the times,
it's utterly senseless things
and after awhile, we'd just forget what we were quarreling abt.

is it those kind of quarrels which wld keep a friendship going?
hah. i dontknow.
maybe it just made us stronger, more matured.

it's q..hah.
but every single person i'm close with,
such a thing wld happen.
the sec1/2 thing. the aic thing. the jing thing. the nic thing. the jm thing.

then maybe,
such a thing happening wld make us realise how much
they mean to us.
and finding out more abt the other person.

rmb in primary school,
we'd write in autograph books
"friends forever" "best friends"
how true is that?
how many ppl actually still keep in touch with their pri sch friends?
in general.

our parents will tell us,
"the friends you make now, some wont even rmb you many years down the road."
i dontknow how true is that.

if paths do not cross,
some ppl, after leaving pri sch/sec sch etc,
wld not be seen ever again.

its just not easy to keep in touch with ppl.
considering everyone leads busy schedules and all.
so how many frenship can withstand such things.
its just so, fake?

in a way,
i'm afraid to be close to ppl.
cus it might end up the same way.
though at the end it'd be okay,
the "journey" through it is really, tiring.
so to save myself from all these,
it's just better to keep my distance from ppl.

maybe thats why no one really knows how i'm really feeling.
as in, i'd still tell ppl things,
but ultimately, its just some things which cld not be said.
no matter how many sms of "i'll always be here for you. you can say whatever you want."
there'd still be a sense of...yeah.

things wld not be said/
feelings kept within/
secrets unrevealed/

maybe one day i'll change my mind abt what i just said.
one day, but not now.

qns to think abt:
-are "hi-bye" friends the best?
-are friendships which are made from nothing also, nothing?

hello!
i dont know why, but today's a happy day. (:

dad's so sweet.
he got a birthday cake for mum from sydney.
how nice. (:

haha.
why am i so happy?

i think i finished studying physics!
note: think

tralalala.
holiday tmr! -beams.
no difference since i havent been gg to sch la,
but its still a happy thing.

she thinks i'm mad ar.
cus..haha.
k nvm.

bye! (:

q happy today. (:

mum's birthday today.
she's in a good mood, How Rare.
told her i didnt want to go cousin's hse for tuition tmr,
and she was like "can you dont make me angry. call your uncle later."
me: i dont want to go la. go there waste time.
she: yeah la. call him to tell him you dont wanna go la.
(: -beams.

haha. why is she so nice recently?
told her i want to stop english tuition and she said okay.
hello, been persuading her to stop tuition since last year.
and because of her canoeing threats, i stayed on for tuition can.
anw, no more eng tuition! (:
no cousin tuition tmr! (:
yay!

happyhappy. (:

so we went to eat lunch.
she was telling me abt some erm,
teacher-student r/s show she saw on tv on sat.
Ehh. how, familiar. hmmm. -winks.

went ntuc.
bought q alot of things la.
so i was being nice, carried all the bags.
den she said-"later ppl think i'm abusing my maid leh."
-_- very good la!
first was my work permit (i/c) den now this.
den walked past this salon place.
so the woman was like "ni de nu er ar?" (your daughter?)
i said: wo shi ta de nu yong! (i am her maid)
..hah.

peihwa's so nice!
btw, saw 2 of my ex-classmates just now.
both guys.
dont think they recognise me.
been so long.
one is p1 classmate, the other p4?
haha.
remembering, i was so guai last time k.
school bell rings at 1.30,
i'd be home by erm, 1.40?
that was after p4 when i just moved hse.
haha.

i miss peihwa la!
and everyone. and the lin lao shi. (: (:
i realise all lin lao shiS (ph and crescent)are nice.
so mum was like "den u can become a lin lao shi too."
...hah.

tralala. peihwa days!
sarajean/xinjie/vivien/deborahyap/deborahang/crystal/amandatan/shihui/huiching/shuwei/liann/chanel/etcc.
(:
happy days.

tralala.
i want to go carefore shopping!
st says: you seem like you never go before supermarket that kind of pattern.
-_- fine la. but i really like!
saw this potato thing.
it's so cute la. the potato thing is in smiley faces.
maybe one day i shld go buy and make for ppl to eat.
haha. (:

k. studyy!
shld i go down church to meet amelia?
i'm so lazy.
and certain ppl will scold me if i go there to study again.
haha.
see first.

(: (: (:
bye!

..my hands q shaking? hah. =